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The Suffering & The Aftermath

by IO

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1.
Here it comes To bring this pain to me from what was never meant to be seen There's a special place in hell reserved for those Who did this to me No forgiveness no regrets Cause I’m not even close to done yet Guess who’s back its the irregular anomaly The thing that’s fighting for more than just mere hostility The thing that’s come to break down the confines And carve a path With the chronicles of a lifetime They thought that they had beaten me They thought that they had cheated me They thought that they could get away with all the sordid little games they play I Will not be discounted I possess the will to move mountains Oh But You’re never the same once you’re betrayed by the ones you tried to help along the way I refuse to be another mindless slave Or let the sycophants of this world send me to an early grave I just couldn’t take another wasted day As if it wasn’t enough for them to try take my life away from me now They thought that they had beaten me They thought that they had cheated me They thought that they could get away with all the sordid little games they play I will not be misguided I bring the wrath of all the titans Oh no trust left And it’s amplified when you’re betrayed by the ones you trusted Here it comes To bring this pain to me from what was never meant to be seen There's a special place in hell reserved for those Who did this to me No forgiveness no regrets Cause I’m not even close to done yet As I look back I remember why I had to go So many years I wasted for nothing and gone before I knew it All the effort I spent just to be taken as read And I tried as hard as I could But some things just can’t be forgiven They thought that they had beaten me They thought that they had cheated me They thought that they could get away with all the sordid little games they play I will not be misguided I bring the wrath of all the titans Oh no trust left And it’s amplified when you’re betrayed by the ones you trusted What have they done I am the one The one who’s taken so much pain From a world so dark and so numb And make no mistake They knew what they were doing all along Then tried to play their games With every trick that they could And all their hollow promises I’m not done yet Liars and thieves And all the tools they deceive Destroying any shred of respect From a lifetime of neglect Subjugate all their threats Because they’re meaningless No care of whose lives they separate or terminate Stealing the life’s blood from the soul Well I’m taking it back I’m taking it back I’m taking it back Let it rain Cause I refuse to be another one of their victims
2.
T.F.I. 02:21
I’m so sick of always hearing what you wanted of me It’s like you never understood how to feel I know it’s been hard with many bumps in the road But I can’t take another day its fucking suffocating me I’ve been holding my tongue for too long, and you know damn well that you’re wrong All these childish games, just driving me insane You do this every fucking day going round and round again What the point in wasting more time on you shit? I told you one more time That’s fucking it. for me. I don’t want to hear it again And sorry won’t make up for all the things that you’ve said Life too short to try to heal or to mend And once again I’m saying Goodbye my ‘friend’ Would you take it all back if you could? Coz I very much doubt that you would Can’t believe that I fell for it again and again, can’t believe I ever called you my friend I’ve been holding my tongue for too long And you know damn well that you’re wrong All these childish games it’s driving me insane Oh you fucking lied to me Ahh you know you did Oh That’s fucking it That’s. Fucking. It.
3.
Break It 04:52
I wana Break it til the atoms are displaced and erased Til a void of space is left in its place Til the weakened system that they had so poorly designed turns to ashes right in front of their eyes I’m not here to say I’m sorry and I’m tired of the games, justifications for your actions that can never be explained I have suffered too much pain too much misery to date just look into my eyes and see the fire you can’t contemplate Break. It. Until. There’s nothing left of it Break. It. Until. There’s nothing left of it Grease this path with the filthy putrid lies I tread upon And line it with the names of the fools that attempted to enslave me all along Now they’re rotting in pain Paralysed in fear at the mention of my name Too ashamed of the awful things that they’ve done, lying awake at night afraid of what they’ll see, cause when they close their eyes they see Me I refused to be another victim of their schemes They’re continuing to try to enslave whole generations of humanity To suppress the rage took an inordinate amount of Me I guess my nerve got too damn short Do you know what I mean?! I live to bring this fire that will never be contained And all the rage that manifests inside of me has a never ending source of fuel for the flame There’s more pages to this story not concerned with fools of folly, let them live with all the things that they’ve done Simply no taking back the time and I refused to fall in line, I became what they always feared And now I’ve come to Break. It. Until. There’s nothing left of it Break. It. Until. There’s nothing left of it Tell me why did they have to go and lie Every time Do they think we’re fucking blind? We’ve seen their evil doings and all the good lives that they’ve ruined And an apology just won’t cut it this time They knew all along that they crossed the fucking line Now I’ve welcomed them to the nightmare of their own design There is no escape, from the monster I have made This is an unstoppable force born of suffering and rage Misery Your own medicine doesn’t fucking taste good does it Misery Endless psychopathic voids of misery Without Help Just know there’s no saving yourself from me “This is how it’s gonna be” I will never be That zero that they told me, I had to Just accept it right And it came down to one night, I’d just had enough Of all of the misery And what They tried to do to me I just had to break it Sick of all their shit What the fuck did they think was gonna happen? What? I’d accept all the lies? No I will not just lay down and die Best expect a surprise No I will not just lay down and die What in the Fuck did they think was gonna happen?!
4.
How can this be Where are your morals n decency No trust left to save I have had as much as I can take It’s endless So senseless Relentlessness of the same thing I knew all was not as it would appear to be And the deception is something I cannot stand to see engulfing me All the scars left behind to remind me Of the painful memories haunting me That I tried to forget for so long And lost myself along the way Tried to quell it with the sauce and the excess But all that it did was make it worse for me Life’s too short to look for a remedy that never existed or ever will My blood runs thick With all the poisons I have done Distractions fading too quick With no peace I wasn’t capable of Feeling Or even Seeing I Couldn’t foresee what you’d do to me Disgusted by the thoughts but what’s done is done The black summer Come to take me again I’m circling the drain Nothings what it seems Was it ever? Does it even matter? The black summer Cannot face it another way It’s the season of all the debauchery It’s the season It’s the season of another way to make it better Take it down The black summer Come to take me again And All the scars left behind to remind me Of the painful memories haunting me That I tried to forget for so long And lost myself along the way Tried to quell it with the sauce and the excess But all that it did was make it worse for me Life’s too short to look for a remedy that never existed or ever will My blood runs thick With all the poisons I have done Distractions fading too quick With no peace I wasn’t capable of Feeling Or even Seeing I Couldn’t foresee what you’d do to me Disgusted by the thoughts but what’s done is done I need for things to get better now But they just keep getting worse So sick of being taken for granted And every time I saw you It’s the same That arrogance and the stupidity No care for dignity Your names not worth the paper that it’s been written on I have seen That Self imposed entitlement once before What’s more You’re agendas paper thin I can see right through it You thought that I was done But I’d only just begun I’d only just begun I’ve accepted the pain I want it I need it to remind me I’m still real That I can still feel Been Numbing myself for too long My visions burring as the colours return To let me live with what I’ve learned as The black summer comes to take me again To replace all the misery With much more of the poison The black summer come to take me again To detach me from all you’ve made And I’ve had as much as I can take
5.
The Needle 03:16
Wait so we’re not supposed to live for tomorrow we should only live for the sake of today But if today’s just the same as tomorrow that’s such a very pointless thing to say Coz it plays on repeat like you never went to sleep can’t escape no release Ijust want a little peace Is this a moment just passing in time? Stop saying everything’s fine It’s clearly not x2 The needle x3 I told myself never again.. I told myself I wouldn’t do this to myself again And again it starts all over As the pills go down like water All the pain still weighs In the the hope one day it finally go away So Still clinging onto hope Ever reached the end of that rope With more progress comes a sense of relief All you needed was belief in yourself And in time it will come But In the end the pain comes round again Stop saying everything’s fine It’s clearly not x2 The needle x3 Not again... Don’t lie to me again Just do It I said don’t lie to me Just do it again
6.
Oh what’s it gonna take to replace all the mistakes that I’ve made Trusting too much and letting myself believe that they cared It was all just a farce and I couldn’t foresee the tragedy that came next But I never gave in no matter how much pain I had to take from it all I’ve wasted so much time so many years I’ll never get back Holding solace in the fact that they couldn’t corrupt this mind of mine With my conscience held intact, its redesigned and so much more defined There’s no point in looking back with regret coz it shaped the very thing I came to be Embrace it, your life is only ever what you make it Re-lace it, numb all the feeling and the pain til you can face it Suffer through it, pain is temporary, glory is eternal Refuse it, all the lies that they told us for so long I’m tired of the same thing day after day after day Re-wired it, same mind new tricks to destroy their game Didn’t expect it coz they wrote me off so long ago Manifesting, I’ll make ‘em eat their words every single time I’m not associated They Misappropriated Now they’re left with nothing Nothing but their petty whines and squabbling Enough is enough So many bigger problems to deal with-ah Not a chance I won’t be your tool Pair delusions with low vibrations No time to be lectured by fools Just another mistake Oh what’s it gonna take to replace all the mistakes that I’ve made Trusting too much and letting myself believe that they cared It was all just a farce and I couldn’t foresee the tragedy that came next But I never gave in no matter how much pain I had to take from it all I’ve wasted so much time so many years I’ll never get back Holding solace in the fact that they couldn’t corrupt this mind of mine With my conscience held intact, it’s redesigned and so much more defined There’s no point in looking back with regret coz it shaped the very thing I came to be Couldn’t deny me It won’t change the fact they came up short I had to go Forced to save the little sanity that I’d retained Then tragically had to watch as all the pain devoured everything And the insanity was there was nothing I could do to take it all away And I’m tired from the same thing day after day after day What’s required torn out of me again and again and again Never relenting, I couldn’t stop trying even if I wanted to Coz if I did I’d never learn to live with myself Help came in little measure A life Devoid of pleasure I never thought it’d turn out like it did Or just how much that I had lost along the way So many bigger problems to deal with-ah Not a chance I won’t be your tool Pair delusions with low vibrations No time to be lectured by fools Just another mistake I had To break That cycle Of slavery So I carved this path Made of sheer will and wrath Despite the odds No matter what the cost I came to destroy all the evil that they’ve done To make life liveable again This is not the end Way past the point to mend This is not the end IO become the vision, dissolve the friction Become the visions, dissolve the friction They were always one and the same Oh what’s it gonna take to replace all the mistakes that I’ve made Trusting too much and letting myself believe that they cared It was all just a farce and I couldn’t foresee the tragedy that came next But I never gave in no matter how much pain I had to take from it all I’ve wasted so much time so many years I’ll never get back Holding solace in the fact that they couldn’t corrupt this mind of mine With my conscience held intact, its redesigned and so much more defined There’s no point in looking back with regret coz it shaped the very thing I came to be
7.
E-nough 03:22
Man I’m tired of being told that I don’t matter at all Ever since I was a kid always told that I did not belong They said my achievements were always theirs to take Never getting noticed for anything that I’d created It doesn’t matter one bit what your title says You’re such a worthless piece of shit good luck you’ll need it Just spread depression and disgust wherever you go Even garbage is disgusted by the sight of you Enough I’ve had enough of all of this shit from you I’ve had enough of all of it Enough There’s not a thing you could ever hope to say or do To make me want to help you Fall To sleep And breathe in deep Lay it all To rest To pave the way For the best I had to kill that part of me That ever cared for you at all I just couldn’t forgive myself For ever trusting you And all the shit that you put me through You don’t possess me get the fuck out of my head I’m so much more than anything you could ever comprehend The sheer audacity to cheat me out of what’s mine Then devise another scheme to try to make me fall in line again How quick they forget I told them once we’d met I’ll produce great things but don’t you ever try to stab me in the back Or try to take the credit for my work So they did both Enough I’ve had enough of all of this shit from you I’ve had enough of all of it Enough There’s not a thing you could ever hope to say or do To make me want to help you
8.
So much grief so much pain it’s gotten heavy As if I didn’t have enough of both of them already Give me peace give me time for some release With No time to waste, I’ve gotta get out of this place Suffer, until the misery is your only friend Endless and no one cared to lend a helping hand Never will I endure it again Wanting for some joy that never came The suffering These endless days The suffering These endless days Force fed all of the empty platitudes of life Falling out of the pack like grains of rice None of this seems right so tell me why? Does it have to be like this? The suffering These endless days The suffering After I’ve endured this I’ll never be the same I’m longing for the day No matter what they say That all of this had led to colour in the grey I’ll always find a way My will just can’t be tamed I’ve come back from the precipice again Again.Again. And Again if that’s what it takes x2 This isn’t over until I say that it is I thought I’d said it before This isn’t over until I say that it is What’s more This isn’t over until I say that it is I thought I’d said it before This isn’t over until I say that it is See this I’ve never given up on a Single thing I’ve Ever set my mind to create Face it I don’t succumb to the pressure Failure don’t exist here even with the Suffering These endless days The suffering After I’ve endured this I’ll never be the same I got out of the maze Then went back in again I knew I had no choice but to decimate their game With the knowledge I have gained To heal him of his pain And break out of this hell that he’s been living in I’d do it again and again if that’s what it takes x2 This isn’t over until I say that it is I thought I’d said it before This isn’t over until I say that it is What’s more This isn’t over until I say that it is I thought I’d said it before This isn’t over until I say that it is I won’t give up And I refuse to give in x2 Over this I don’t know much longer he can take it No matter what happens in the end Know I did everything I could x2 I did e-very thing I ever could You didn’t give up on me So I won’t give up on you x2 I won’t give up on you I made a promise and I intend to keep it I will find a way to kill the pain I will find a way to take it all away
9.
Be-Leive In Me Like I Believe in You Look at Me Now You’re free Finally made it out of the pain game as of today For the time I’ve spent upon a path so few would tread It Finally came to something more than I could have ever dreamt I never questioned why I wanted to make this I guess I knew deep down I had to To break the cycle that continued on repeat Had to break that pattern of the endless strained monotony It was doing no good for my sanity And it nearly killed me I could see my life slipping away I could see the light beginning to fade No matter how much effort I had put in to save it I lost more time than I’d care to admit I lost more friends that I’ll never forget All for more empty promises It so sadistic Sociopathic Psychosematic I am the one they couldn’t handle Forget sentimental Tried to use me then threw me away just like the rest They wouldn’t listen More concerned with the friction Be-cause I saw through the petty little lies that I despise Be-Leive In Me Like I Believe in You Look at Me Now You’re free Finally made it out of the pain game as of today It never made much sense Why work on false pretence So over burned with the pain No end in sight again But I still have my force of will I Won’t take it standing still There was clearly more to know Frustration overload I could see my life slipping away I could see the light beginning to fade No matter how much effort I had put in to save it I lost more time than I’d care to admit I lost more friends that I’ll never forget All for more empty promises It so sadistic Sociopathic Psychosematic I am the one they couldn’t handle Forget sentimental Tried to use me then threw me away just like the rest They wouldn’t listen More concerned with the friction Be-cause I saw through the petty little lies that I despise And I will not be denied I wont be their victim Or be a part of their rotten system I’ll never forgive I won’t forget it Why promise something when you never meant it So long and good riddance Tell me what’s real All they did was lie and steal Their words were just that Empty rhetoric and that’s a fact How do they sleep at night? Holding their loved ones so tight? I wish them the worst As I hold on to the best Of me Come get some With no resolve Their power dissolved Into thin air I am the input and the output I’m the thing that they’ve been craving I’m the one they’re always needing And they made the mistake of trying to take what I’d made Bad call They Can’t take away what they dint create I’m free I’m free Finally I’m free
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re-Birth 01:13
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“This Album is the next progression in the IO sound, more aggressive, savagely darker and much heavier than my previous efforts. These songs are a combination of chapters from my turbulent life the past 2 years, as well as reflecting on the darker parts of the years that led up to the serious health issues my father endured through 2019 and 2020, going through multiple emergency surgeries for a dual aneurysm in both of his legs which required a large portion of his foot to be amputated.
This took a severe toll on my personal life, my family and my mental state. I felt like I was literally cracking at the seams. I had to, and still do have to maintain isolation from relationships and physical contact with anyone (friends, family or otherwise) since my father was & still is so high risk in his early recovery stages, made especially difficult for us both in the middle of a global pandemic.
The hospital ended up being a second home for him through majority of 2019 & 2020, and the pain he’s had to endure the past few years as a result is nothing short of intense suffering which inspired a lot of subject matter as well as the title of this album.
After losing my day job as a result of prioritizing taking care of my father, in addition to personal and professional betrayals from people I had considered friends, I didn’t know if I’d make it through last year, and I’m sure that I’m not the only one who struggled throughout 2020. So I decided to write this album any spare moment I had, both to vent the pain and frustrations, and to try to keep some semblance of sanity; but more so, to embrace the refusal to give up or be a victim, to keep going and persevere no matter what or who tried to bring me down.
The aspect of this album that makes it so special to me aside from the subject matter and lyrical content, is the fact that lack of finances meant I didn’t know whether I could afford to finish the production of this album let alone get it released. But, due to the overwhelming support from my fans streaming my music and buying my merchandise, I was able to get this album over the finish line.
Something I am eternally grateful for and will never forget.
I honestly cannot stress enough how much I appreciate every single one of you.
This album gave me a place to let it all out, gave me a better perspective in general, gave me the strength to keep going; and reminded me why I keep doing what I love.
I hope it can help you overcome any struggles in your life, whatever or whoever they may be.

All the best and much respect as always,
Mike”

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released January 22, 2021

Written, Performed, Produced, Recorded, Mixed and Mastered
by Mike Webster 2020

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